Monday, May 20, 2013
Nate Turns 7 Today
In 2008, on Michael's 30th birthday, I wrote a pretty scathing critique of the state of my life. I didn't spare myself, and I didn't cut myself too much slack.
Today is Nathan's seventh birthday. And I'm looking at what's happened in the past 5 years.
Today is Nathan's seventh birthday. And I'm looking at what's happened in the past 5 years.
- I'm still on the road, I'm still writing and teaching and consulting.
- In a market where many of my colleagues are scrambling for work, I'm trying to figure out how to get a little time off.
- I still haven't figured out how to have both a romantic life and a professional one, but I've connected more actively with my family and with old friends,
- I'm 2 or 3 sizes smaller than I was in 2008.
- My hair is probably grayer, but only David my stylist really knows for sure. I pay him on a regular basis to keep my ignorance of the facts intact. .
- My vision is definitely deteriorating, My eyes seem to be getting older faster than the rest of me.
- All in all, I'm pretty healthy, but I can't push myself to ridiculous levels any more. If I pull an all-nighter for work, I feel it more than I used to.And I feel it longer.
- My insomnia is worse, but I've stopped trying to medicate it into submission.
- It has been a frustrating year in some ways. My son George connected with his birth parents and biological siblings, and that has not been painless for me. Part of this is that George is more flexible and inclusive than I am in some ways, and I'm not ready to share my place in his life. I have never doubted for a second that he was my son. Full stop. Period. But some days I doubt that he is as certain that I am his Mom in quite the same way.